Published on Saturday, 26 May 2012 12:55
Written by Jules
Yesterday I was trolled. It was really quite awful if I must be honest. I don't want to admit it because when I do, the troll wins.
In short, this jerk pops on to the Chronic Chronicles podcast chat and begins ranting about antisemitic and abeliest garbage.
I did all the technical things I was supposed to in order to get rid of him and he kept coming back. I am working with Talk Shoe, I am wondering why there is no live support to handle situations like this. A hate crime is a hate crime no matter how you slice it, and there should be someone there to stop this.
I think what bothers me the most is that he revealed a chink in my Chronically Awesome Armor. He got to me to go from strong and mighty Jules to crying baby Juli that could not deal with it, could not ignore, could not overcome the stupidity of some bitch troll that can't face people in person, getting his kicks disrupting the lives of others who are trying to make the world a better place.
I will tell you what also bothers me. It is that it wasn't just me, it was my co-hosts, it was the audience trying to participate in the chat. I could not protect them
, and that is my job.
It's a day later and still I am crying, still I am afraid to engage socially. The biggest parts of my agoraphobia have crept back to the surface.
I will be back next Friday. I have the support of those I need to be there and be strong. These tears will stop, the anxiety will lift. I am Chronically Awesome and that means that nothing will stop me. Just give me an hour to compose myself... or 3 hours.
or 48.And to the troll: I honestly don't think that Hitler gave much thought to Crohn's. Really, I doubt it.Chronic Chronicles || Fridays || 3pm Eastern || Noon Pacific
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